Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

Although I have been lamenting on this blog, about my inability to do anything for myself, about not taking care of myself, I've continued to practice behaviors that are contrary to any change in that manner.

But, I finally hit a wall. Two weeks ago I finally made a decision instead of using the age old "deciding not to decide now, is making a decision" excuse.

I am applying to graduate school. For me. Yes the desperation got the best of me.

The desperation for a change.
The desperation for rigidity and structure.
The desperation to be appreciate for my work, and love my job simultaneously.
The desperation to be self-sacrificing by means which I determine not by someone else's.
The desperate need to follow what I always knew I wanted to do. To take charge!

And so it is with this, that I say I am submitting my application tonight. With the hopes that as of January, I will finally get that fresh start I've been asking for.

Academia best be ready fah me.